After weeks of frustration at too few answers and too little progress toward the clarity of purpose which I’m so wanting in my life, I realized today that I’m just sick of it. Sick of feeling down. Sick of feeling angry and impatient with others because of my melancholy. Sick of stewing over the same problems again and again. Sick of how depression feels!!
More than ready for change, I made the decision this morning that I was going to enjoy my day! (Theorizing that enjoying myself would feel so much more pleasant than the alternative.) No, I did not turn to mood-altering drugs. No, I did not neglect all the home and parental responsibilities which are mine and sit back eating bon bons all day. Rather, I turned my mood thermostat to “enjoy” and proceeded to try to enjoy each thing that I was going to do.
To my blessed delight (and surprise), I was able to do it! I’ve had a great day! There were a few situations that challenged my patience, but in each I quickly realized how I was starting to feel and thus changed my outlook and “upped” the empathy. Voila’! A return to enjoyment.
I am so pleased with the rewards of my simple decision. What a powerful prescription for happiness: Enjoying. (Maybe I should patent it.) <grin>